Monday, March 8, 2010,6:35 PM
Relationships.
Even after all this time, even after all the lessons learned.. I still have one major flaw. I am clingy. I don't know why I am so clingy and I don't understand why I don't learn from my past mistakes. It doesn't make sense to keep doing something a certain way, even though I know it causes trouble.
But I know that he loves me regardless of my flaws, but even so.. I understand that it might be a burden. It's hard dealing with me, I know. I don't want it to be like that.
I look around and watch couples fight and sometimes it gets out of hand. That's where I thank the Lord for blessing me with someone like you. Someone made so perfect for me.
So I have compiled a list of things that I could start following. I need to make this change, not for him, not for my family, not for my friends, but for me.
- Learn patience. When he says he's on his way, trust him. Don't call every 5 minutes.
- Have trust. Don't compare this beautiful relationship to the ruined past.
- Stay optimistic. We need both rain and shine to grow strong!
- Keep faith. Don't ever, ever doubt him.
I have zero patience, I get easily jealous, I am pessimistic, and I am shaky on our relationship. I keep expecting things, I keep wanting things.. but when will I realize that I am perfectly, wonderfully content? I have everything I will ever need, plus more.
I love you, my boxman.
Labels: blessed, love, relationships
