Tuesday, March 9, 2010,9:14 PM
200th day.
"I'm a woman in love and I love what it's doing to me!"
There are a lot of things that I want to get done and over with as soon as possible. Like, graduating and finishing college. And honestly, I wanna fast forward to the part where I'm happily married, successful and proactive in my community. The idea of having children one day makes me feel completely excited for the next phases in my life. I can't wait to learn how to cook, sew, and clean properly to establish a warm-cozy home for my one-day family.
These are things that I yearn to have in my life, but I am still a teenager, not even an adult.
I don't really know why these thoughts are coming to me, but they've been in my head since I was a freshman. I remember in 10th grade, I wanted to be a mother so badly. I couldn't wait to leave my household, away from my mother and sisters.
I don't know, I feel like.. I shouldn't be so excited for the future. I know it's great to have hopes, goals, and dreams. But I need to focus on right now, or else none of that would even matter. None of it can be accomplished. Maybe life is moving a little too fast for me.. if that's the case, then why am I still urging time to move fast?
Slow me down, please.
Labels: 200th, motherhood, time
